For five blocks after I left home,
I walked like a man
With something to do, someplace to go -
***
When I breath,
This sound in my chest
Lonelier than the winter wind
***
Like some train across the wild waste
This agony
Now and then through my mind!
***
Thought about the things I really wanted
And yet it all boiled down to none -
I polish my long-stemmed Japanese pipe!
***
All these people
Going in the same direction -
And me, watching them from the side
***
In the morning about four days ago -
O that dream
In which I argued with a god and cried!
***
Somehow
Thought myself important -
O childish me!
***
No reply from the next bed...
I looked,
Found him in tears.
***
"Now I see through you completely!"
Oh those words of my mother
In that dream!
***
At my words "Christ was a man",
The sorrow I felt
Seeing my sister's eyes pitying me.
I walked like a man
With something to do, someplace to go -
***
When I breath,
This sound in my chest
Lonelier than the winter wind
***
Like some train across the wild waste
This agony
Now and then through my mind!
***
Thought about the things I really wanted
And yet it all boiled down to none -
I polish my long-stemmed Japanese pipe!
***
All these people
Going in the same direction -
And me, watching them from the side
***
In the morning about four days ago -
O that dream
In which I argued with a god and cried!
***
Somehow
Thought myself important -
O childish me!
***
No reply from the next bed...
I looked,
Found him in tears.
***
"Now I see through you completely!"
Oh those words of my mother
In that dream!
***
At my words "Christ was a man",
The sorrow I felt
Seeing my sister's eyes pitying me.